Neraincubus

Please stop giving me that false hope. One minute you say you love me and build me up to believe in those happy little lies that float in my mind. However now it is nothing but pain and sadness that I feel when with you. And as fast as you build me up the fast er you break me. Today I feel hollow and can't stand how foolish I am when it comes down to the lies you feed me. All the hope I had put into you is fading quickly, and I soon will all completely disappear like my broken little heart.

Why should it matter to you what they say. Their words are only denying you the freedom of being yourself. In turn you decide to lock yourself away. But why don't you want the real you to get hurt, broken or worse disappear out of existence. And all you can do is watch and try to reach out to the you that you were trying to protect. And when you can't reach anymore you begin to cry, pray and hope that someone out there is brave enough to crack through  your supposed impenetrable fortrfortress to fly up and save the you that you once were. But once they see this bubbly, cheerful person will they leave, or be your hero to the very end. And vow

Why do her words sting like the pain of an icicle that percies through my very being. I begin to wonder, why her words are able to pierce me so easily? how come when someone else says something to hurt you, you can easily show no concern for their words. But if it were to be family you are so shaken knowing they are of higher authority and render you silent. Then that all to familiar pain, jabs you jn your heart. You know you have a lot go say buy the fear that has a strong hold on your heart. So strong that you really can't tell that person off because of your fear , because of the immense pain they bring you through their words. So courageo